Who Is To Blame - Part 2

I stole her away…
That was no innocent child
She was full of wisdom I would never attain,
That not even a martyr of a thousand years could ever dream of
I stole her away….
Because she was never mine
Just as my wife was never mine,
That child was never mine

I can still see the look of confusion in my wife’s eyes
That baby knew everything within that stare
She knew everything and more
She knew more than was physically possible,
In her little time on earth

So I stole her away…
I kept her from growing…
I keep her…in here!!!
She listens to my lies
Though somehow she sees right through them
She finds truth in the ugly…the damned…
With surpassing intelligence

The truth has many eyes, many ears
The truth need only taste once
Then it has to hit and run

The taxi driver knocked me out,
But before I was hit,
He saw the loose shell in my arms
He saw that she was not looking at anyone
He saw a stupid, innocent child
She was looking at the ceiling,
Fascinated by its insignificance 

She didn’t cry out,
No matter how hard I thrashed
One second I missed that terrible stranger
But the memory has seared into me a hate that will never fade…
She didn’t move at all

     I woke up and was childless. I lost everything, I dully knew. Sometimes I am haunted by the baby’s gaze…but she is not looking at me. She is looking at everyone else—all of those who I have hurt and ruined, all of those I have yet to know. 
     The sad thing is, I never imagine my child looking down from sky paradise…I always picture her as I last saw her…looking up.  
Copyright © | Year Posted 2014

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Bordner Avatar
March 2, 2014 at 1:40 PM
A haunting grace, a sorrow worth sippin Laura. From me the child is my soul. J.A.B.
Walsh Avatar
January 27, 2014 at 4:18 AM
Powerfully gripping Laura....you should write novels you grip the reader by the throat and don't let go ....there's a sinister streak in your writing that teases and tantalizes the reader ....especially those with their own sinister streak, lol there's millions of us out there....Clive Barker and Steven King made a living outta it ...great stuff as all your writings
Carroll Avatar
January 25, 2014 at 3:17 PM
Hi Laura, A poignant and soul touching write..
Williams Avatar
January 25, 2014 at 11:04 AM
Laura now and again you read something that stops you in your tracks and your brain goes wow...this is that moment...David
Makama Avatar
January 24, 2014 at 3:57 PM
What a great poem. Its nice reading your piece once again. Keep on writing please.
Onclaud Avatar
January 24, 2014 at 1:50 PM
oh my, compelling read so downright tearing.. written from the gut, laura.. i squirm yet the beauty of this piece devours me..children are closest to the gods... huggs
Manassian Avatar
January 23, 2014 at 7:38 AM
Oh Laura.....how absolutely gripping and........disturbing...I wish you could walk me through it....to catch the heart of the matter....I'm left wanting ti know....more
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