Who I Was Before You

I remember the day
That you came into my life,
Flooding my brain with
Dopamine, introducing me
To euphoria.
Energy flowed through
My veins and into my limbs,
Causing them to tingle
And tremble
In anticipation of the 
Possibilities with you 
Around.
I remember knowing
You would eventually leave
And take with you
My newfound joy unless
I could find you again,
And make you stay.
I remember thinking 
You would save my life 
With your uplifting qualities,
And ability to give me
The confidence I so desperately
Desired.

But you didn’t save me.
You ruined me.
Ten years later and
I’m a shell of who I once was,
Trapped in a cycle of despair
And hopelessness,
Praying that one day I will 
Escape and remember who I was
Before you.

*Based on a story from a client*
Copyright © | Year Posted 2018

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September 18, 2018 at 1:44 AM
Self-worth from external sources is tenuous at best. True self-worth must come from within. Nice write. Be at rest.
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