Who Am I and Why Am I Me

WHO AM I AND WHY AM I ME When I wake in the mornings to look at my day I have to start out pushing my pain away I know I have problems that I have to fight But a person like me sometimes can’t sleep all night I was in a wreck when I was 15 and I saw the light I heard God say to me, it’s not my time, I wonder why he was right So why did I live I don’t understand but I guess God knows why Because he is the main man I feel all people see is the beauty on the outside But they have no idea of all the pain I hide on the inside I would walk for miles to help someone live Just to know they had smiles to give I have always believed everything is meant for a reason My pain is real and hard to describe, but God can change a season Maybe the abuse that I went through is the reason I do what I do. But that’s not a excuse to people that love you It’s amazing to me how the world works in a mysterious way Because for me I have to wonder why I am here day to day When I leave this world I hope I have done what was meant for me. That is the reason we are all here is to be all we can be Sometimes I have to cry, sometimes just be alone, and sometimes I have to scream at the unknown It’s a pain within ourselves that no one can see, but it can hurt like hell sometimes to have to be me I don’t understand my thoughts and why I feel this way But God had his reason for me in that wreck that day I have a wonderful family, and I love them all so much and they love me. So who am I and what am I suppose to be. I am so sorry for the pain I have cause all of my loved ones but I feel deep inside you understand what is going on The pain inside of me is from my soul, day to day I never know You can’t understand it until you feel the pain I don’t show I will fight to the end for the reason I am here, to be all I can be and I will be strong enough to see why I am me When I go to bed I will defiantly pray that while I am a sleep God will give me a better next day. I want others to know it’s not all just me, I just want to know who we are and we are suppose to be I am going to sleep now because I am tired, but the women I was today, tomorrow will be retired. All I want to know in life is who I am and why I am me, God didn’t say when he shined that light for only me to see Cindy Malony