White Nights

White nights Another night so dark and bleak How did I become so weak Here I’ll lay this is it My cold dark lonely pit Because over me it still has power this so very destructive white fluffy powder I feel there’s no hope I’m struggling to cope I feel so trapped Now that I’ve relapsed I so wanted to conquer Reclaim some honour But you succumbed to the call Where so many of us fall That dark blank spot we have to thank You have no memory of That moment you sank What’s next for me where do I go Do I move on and rise once more Or do I stay here dying for sure I know what to do I even know how Lift your head up and take a bow Ive listened to the words I’ve heard all the advice It’s all so simple and so concise Is it the drugs that made me a slave Or is it actually the self pity I crave I don’t really care I just want some relief I seemed to have lost all my belief I keep going over and over again Looking I think for a reason a blame But I think it’s so clear to see that the blame lays here with me So shrouded in sadness And sinking in madness I know that I have to pull myself free From all of this crippling misery So if you stumble and stall Don’t stay where you fall New foundations you have to build Only then will your pain be healed