White Nights

White nights
Another  night so dark and bleak 
How did I become so weak 
Here I’ll lay this is it 
My cold dark lonely pit
Because over me it still has power
this so very destructive white fluffy powder
I feel there’s no hope 
I’m struggling to cope
I feel so trapped
Now that I’ve relapsed 
I so wanted to conquer 
Reclaim some honour 
But you succumbed to the call 
Where so many of us fall
That dark blank spot we have to thank 
You have no memory of
That moment you sank 
What’s next for me 
where do I go 
Do I move on and rise once more 
Or do I stay here dying for sure 
I know what to do I even know how
Lift your head up and take a bow
Ive listened to the words I’ve heard all the advice 
It’s all so simple and so concise 
Is it the drugs that made me a slave 
Or is it actually the  self pity I crave 
I don’t really care I just want some relief 
I seemed to have lost all my belief 
I keep going over and over again 
Looking I think for a reason a blame
But I think it’s so clear to see that the blame lays here with me 
So shrouded in sadness
And sinking in madness 
I know that I have to pull myself free
From all of this crippling misery 
So if you stumble and stall 
Don’t stay where you fall
New foundations you have to build 
Only then will your pain be healed
Copyright © | Year Posted 2020

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