Where's My Needle and Thread?

That smile It just makes me feel wanted And the fact that I'm doing this to him Oh god why? Why must I be like this? One lie leads to another, Lead to me screaming at myself w/ my mouth sown shut! If I didn't need it to caress yours I would probably cut out my own tongue. Because then maybe you'd love me.... Because ,even if you feel strongly about me now I would be hopeless Because you don't know me.. You know someone else. Because I don't show me very often. I hide myself in lies. But maybe if my mouth was sown shut, You would at least know me by my actions, not my words. Maybe then you could love me.. Well maybe not you, but someone because my actions I trust My words HORRIFY me... So maybe if I just stood there and smiled You'd smile back and we could go from there...