Where Can I Find You

Where can I find you? Where are you hiding? I've asked the Stars they remain silent I've asked the Moon night after night from full moon to crescent and back she shies away from me... Not a word I ask the Sun from sunup till sundown I beg and cajole The blazing eye in the sky to speak of you To tell me where he has last seen you To put aside his jealousy that I long for your heat more than his In anger he burns and doesn't say a word I ask the sea I ask every living tree From the flowers I plead "Tell me, little ones... Have you seen him? Have you seen my love?" They sway and sway Though he loves them so... Not a word they say I ask my heart, "Have you seen my love? It's been so very long... So very long since I felt his touch and heard his voice Have you seen my love, Tell me, where has he gone?" My heart speaks, "Silly child... All this time and you have not heard him speak? What is each beat? What is this inner pounding you hear? Is it not his voice? Can you not hear? He is here... He is resting in me Not to be harmed Yes, don't be alarmed He is here in your little heart Of what use is the sun, moon, stars, and sea When he lies safe in me You can find him also in your mind There, in there, my little one He is who you want him to be He loves you as you want to be loved In your heart In your mind He lives and breaths and moves Can't you see? Can't you hear? Listen to me." Wearied from my search I lay down on my bed I closed my tear filled eyes and placed my hand on my chest I felt the beating of my heart and I thought of you I smiled and I thought of you The Moon sent her silvery messengers To caress and sooth me and with the light of dawn, The Sun came to warm my thoughts And I rose to a new day With no questions in my heart With nothing left to say For my lover was in me... Eileen