Where Are You God?

God where are you?? When my father put me in hospital where were you? When I wanted to die where were you. When I had to testify against my father where were you. God I keep reaching out But somehow I end up without. I keep asking myself what did I do that was so bad That you would leave me with my dad. Why wont you forgive me? Why won’t you save me? God where are you?? Where did you go when my sister died? Where did you go when he said he didn’t cheat but he lied? Where did you go when my best friend was hit by a drunk driver? Where were you when I was the only survivor? I’m only human I was wrong come back to me. I’m down on my knees. Please I can’t take anymore! I can’t watch another love one walk out that door. God where are you. There has to be a reason why I am here and why you are gone. Why are you gone? Can a person be born bad. Is it possible to always be mad? Are you there? Why aren’t you fair? Do you exist? If so why do you resist? Why won’t you save me? Why didn’t you save me? Save me?