When the Summer Rained

Hot air causes me to sweat Stress causes me to cry There’s nowhere to hide from my emotions But I still try Food hates me Weight loss deteriorates me They ask me what’s wrong but I have no answer Confusion and anger cloud my judgement I want to move forward but I have no legs Life moves around me as I stay stagnant Regret from past future and present chain me to the floor And when I look for understanding there is no more I search for my purpose to no avail I work so hard only to fail I pick up my pencil and I cannot focus I use my words but I cannot speak Loneliness in a crowd of people keeps me quiet So many emotions and I just wanna hide it How do you handle loving a lover who’s heart is your no more? How do you stand when you want to fall on the floor? I try to be strong and just have patience But my patience is breaking me to the core My desperation for love is my demise I swim in a sea of whys I suffocate waiting for true love to find me I just wait for true love to try me