When grief became a shadow

When grief became a shadow It felt as if nothing else mattered Like a sudden darkness Raining down upon us Like sucking the light from our eyes Like a wound opened multiple times It follows you like a stalker Creepily walking behind you Keeping an eye on your every moment And when you think you outsmarted it When you take a deep breath and treasure the moment It strikes when you are most vulnerable Stealing your breath While watching you struggle The weight of what could've been haunts you Wishing you didn't give in to the world's cruelty Whishing you could travel back to the moment When the world taught you, your skin was a problem Telling the broken you You love them When the world forces you to carry perfection Whilst teaching white children that their skin equates to perfection Wishing the world could see How damaging trauma can be When you make black kids believe That they are a crime against humanity Carrying it to their teens And through adulthood believing A world harbouring their envy When in reality It's us They want to be