Whats Wrong With Me

I FEEL LIKE IM GOING TO BREAK DOWN

WITHOUT EVEN A WORD OR SOUND

THIS LIFE I LIVE THE TEARS IN WHICH I DROWN

IN THE PAST IT IS TEARING ME DOWN, AND STILL IN 2011 IT IS TEARING ME DOWN

I FEEL SO WORTHLESS, I FEEL PAIN AND SAD

I CAUSED ALL THIS SADNESS, BECAUSE I MADE PEOPLE MAD

AT TIMES IM ALWAYS A LOSER AND KEEP GETTING USED

WHENEVER I GAIN NEW FRIENDS OR HELP THE ONES I CARE 4 I GET SCREWED.

AT TIMES FEAR IS SINKING IN

AND WHEN IM ALONE I FEEL HEAVY RAIN AND COLD MIST RACING THROUGH MY SKIN

WHATS WORSE MEMORIES ARE MISSING

AND MOST OF THEM ARE FADING

SOMEHOW IT MY FAULT BECAUSE I DONT LOVE MYSELF

AND I AGREE IT IS BECAUSE IN REALITY I HATE MYSELF

SO MANY THINGS HAPPEN TO ME AND MOST ARE TO PAINFUL TO EXPLAIN

AND IT KEEPS COMING LIKE A GIANT CLOTHES STAIN.

WHY DO I FEEL SO HAPPY, CHEERY, AND HYPE UP MOOD WHEN I GO OUT

BUT WHEN I GO HOME I FEEL SO MESS UP AND I CANT EVEN SHOUT

I CANT FIGURE OUT WHAT THE PROBLEM IT LIKE I DONT EVEN KNOW WHO I AM

AM I A WINNER OR A LOSER, A PERSON OR A SHADOW, OR AM I REAL OR A SHAM

SOMETIMES I CAN NEVER HAVE PEACE

WHENEVER I WANT IT SO BADLY IT SLIPPED AWAY LIKE GREASE

IT TRUE I HAVE FRIENDS BUT AT TIMES IDK WHO TO TRUST ANYMORE

BECAUSE WHENEVER I CARE 4 SOMEONE IT BACKSTAB ME RIGHT TO THE CORE

AT TIMES I AM A VILLIAN AND AT TIMES IM A HERO

AND MOST OF TIME IDK WHAT I AM SO MOST LIKELY IM A ZERO

WHAT IS GOING ON WITH MY HEAD YOU SAY WHO KNOWS EVEN I DONT KNOW

BUT IT SAD BECAUSE MY LIFE IS A BORING SHOW.

IN THE END IT KINDA FUNNY CAUSE I FEEL LIKE I DONT HAVE A HEART

OH WELL MY HEART IS ALREADY BROKEN SO IT TO LATE IT GOT KILLED BY A SHARD.
Copyright © | Year Posted 2011

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Smith Avatar
March 1, 2011 at 5:12 PM
yea but i still cant get over it 2 much pain
Guzzi Avatar
March 1, 2011 at 5:08 PM
so many of us suffer from depression and lonliness I wonder if we were all togther if we would support each other or be stand offish and still be lonely, what do you think? Light & Love
Mehta Avatar
February 28, 2011 at 1:53 PM
You have penned sad and depressive thoughts in this write, Mckinley
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