What Would I Have To Give To Once Again Relive Pregnancy

While He wakes up wondering what the world will bring I wake up with blood on my hands While he listens to what the birds will sing you I still question my life and try to understand And while I feel myself pumping blood like no other I know this blood is not for me but for whome I'm supposed to be her mother I've smothered myself in everything but faith As mad as I am at him it is me who I hate Disentegrating feeling the wrath of a self induced troubled path Can't sleep, gasping for something to keep this off my heart My mind and body aches from my morals hurting all the time I an't imagine you my child ever forgiving me.. Look at your father's and I's secrecy.. I regret every morning and think.. How differently if you were just here with me. Ive had only one dream of you and the luxory that you held me and showed me love held me so close.. feeling you tell me you still love me the most. When you could've told me "Mommy you failed me." "Mommy you betrayed me.." Trust me my darling I rather you have your life than mine. I had no right to hinder your god given time. I'm so sorry I was selfish and let a boy influence me so devilish. I hope I can make you proud I hope you can hear mommy's love so hard and loud. I'm so sorry please forgive me What I would give to relive my pregnancy. B. Maxine Waldrep