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What We Had Was Real

Tonight, it happened all over    again
I was just lying here, when–
it hit me just like before.  Only
this time it was more 
–intense
 
As thoughts of you filled my head
suddenly I sat up in bed, and–
it made me so mad
to know
you had me this bad
 
But, what else could I do?
I'd already tried, everything I knew
and still, I couldn't stop 
thinking about you
 
God, what kind of fool am I?
You've already moved on
You're with another guy
Yet I'm still beating myself up
wondering what, wondering why
 
Though it only lasted a fortnight
you were the one
who did everything right
Said you knew in your heart,
you'd found love
and wanted to give it a start
 
But, I held steady 
to I wasn't ready. I mean
how could it be? 
It was all just happening
way too fast for me
 
Then you said, I hadn't 
done anything wrong
That it was just time
to move along, and I
too stupid to know 
merely stood there
and watched you go
       
Now I understand
the pain in your eyes
and why you wept 
when we said our good-byes
 
It's the same pain
my heart has felt
ever since you left 
and I haven't dealt
with the fact I love you
and want you back
 
I know it was my fault,
I realized too late. Now I'm alone
and filled with self-hate. So, I sit here
counting stars in the sky, wondering why
I ever let you leave. When I know how I feel
and I truly believe, what we had was real

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