What Was, What Wasn'T, What Is

What Was, What Wasn't, What Is At the time that I was born, well I don't remember. It must have been good. As I grew a little bit, I notice that life was not so good. One day I was given away to a couple that adopted me. They raised me. Life was good for some years. I went to school, I learned to read and write. I also learned to work. That was then a way of life, the way it was. One day I grew up and fell in love. It didn't last but two years, until I had a baby and I was left all alone. My parents did not approved of my boyfriend. He was not of my race. I was thrown out of the house. The Wedding plans we had went down the drain. I didn't have the baby until two years after I was out of the house. That was the way it wasn't. Now in my twilight years - my daughter is all grown up with children of her own. Her dad never saw her until she was forty years old. To me that was like sweet revenge. I have taken many trips to the hospital. it's no fun, but I'm still breathing. Now I sit here and write my stories and poems, that I share with other writers. I also do arts and crafts and crocheting. I sit and write or read poetry. That gives me pleasure and something to do. This is how it is.
05/23/2014 written by Lucilla M. Carrillo
Copyright © | Year Posted 2014
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Roper Avatar
September 23, 2016 at 10:26 PM
You had such a rough life it would be nice to turn the clock back and change things still think of you and miss you dear cousin God's angel
Kendrick Avatar
June 6, 2014 at 5:05 AM
There have been and I guess always will be jack rabbit dads who run away as fast as they can..Enjoyed reading about your life..Thanks for sharing..Your presence at my page was uplifting..Sara
Carrillo Avatar
June 6, 2014 at 5:22 AM
Thank you so much
Enriquez Avatar
June 2, 2014 at 9:13 AM
Dear Lucilla: Very good write. Moving read. Please check my "Crazy Profound 16" which is for you. Enjoy! Leon
Carrillo Avatar
June 2, 2014 at 11:25 AM
Thanks Leon - I will.
Bordner Avatar
May 29, 2014 at 11:49 AM
Lucilla you have clearly learned how to reward Life with your strength. You don't deny Life it's right to hurt. Your poetry always has that clear and smooth wisdom, charming and true in it's matter of fact style. Its great work. J.A.B.
Carrillo Avatar
May 29, 2014 at 3:20 PM
Thank you so much. I never thought of myself as being wise. Maybe we all get that in our old age.
Lamoureux Avatar
May 29, 2014 at 8:36 AM
So sorry to hear about your health concerns. I have said a prayer for you Lucilla.
Carrillo Avatar
May 29, 2014 at 9:39 AM
Thanks Richard; I am on my way to the doctor now. I hope he has good news. I am breathing on oxygen now until I get a pacemaker. That's why I don't write too much.
Lamoureux Avatar
May 29, 2014 at 7:07 AM
Your poem touched me deeply. Do you own a tablet or e-reader? If so you might enjoy my book Titled DUMMY Hurtful and Healing Words. It is available through Amazon and other e-book carriers.
Carrillo Avatar
May 29, 2014 at 8:16 AM
Thank you Richard for reading. I don't own a tablet. Science my visit to the hospital back in November, my vision was messed up with a stroke I had and the heart attack. I have a lot of problems to read or write. Maybe if I get better.
Sietesantos Avatar
May 27, 2014 at 9:49 AM
Thank you, Lucilla for sharing this very emotive piece that touched my heart on many levels! Excellent write.
Carrillo Avatar
May 29, 2014 at 8:08 AM
Thank you, I am very glad that you enjoyed it.
Andresen Avatar
May 27, 2014 at 4:35 AM
- Dear Lucilla, this is a poem that "crawls" deep into my soul - You wrote this so honestly and with your soul .... very touching to read. - Amazing written!! - Bless you my friend - Have a nice day. - oxox // Anne-Lise :)
Carrillo Avatar
May 29, 2014 at 8:07 AM
Thank you Anne Lise, It's just one of life's stories.
Shiells Avatar
May 26, 2014 at 10:49 PM
Hi Lucilla, You have written such a heart warming tender and sad write that engulfed my heart Lucilla. This is very well written full of honesty heart soul and wonderful expression. Thank you for sharing and god bless you and many hugs. Thank you so much for visiting me and leaving your kindness. Love and Peace, Deborah
Carrillo Avatar
May 29, 2014 at 8:04 AM
Thank you , I'm glad that you enjoy it.
Pettit Avatar
May 26, 2014 at 7:13 AM
What it is is another good write Lucilla.
Carrillo Avatar
May 26, 2014 at 12:01 PM
Thank you so much Robert for reading.
Guillermo - Fraser Avatar
May 25, 2014 at 5:08 PM
:) heartwarming and indeed you have been so strong all those trial times in your life and i know you are much stronger now in spirit.. :) i know and i believe God is upholding you through all what you have gone through and still will go through.... :) love and hugs, olive
Carrillo Avatar
May 26, 2014 at 12:05 PM
I try to be strong, but at times I feel like giving up, then I say - I have to keep on trucking until the end.
Fraser Avatar
May 25, 2014 at 11:09 AM
This is a very heart-rendering , but warm write Lucilla, its funny the way we see things from different stages in our life but you have painted a perfect picture of your life thru your words. Nicely done, Blessings, Carl
Carrillo Avatar
May 26, 2014 at 12:07 PM
Thanks Carl. We all have a story to tell and they are all different.
Vaso Avatar
May 25, 2014 at 1:15 AM
You have a way of touching people, such a sad story and yet here you are a bright light amongst us!!! Loved this poem!!
Carrillo Avatar
May 25, 2014 at 10:39 AM
Thank you, that is very kind. I believe we all have story to tell..
Espinola Collins Avatar
May 24, 2014 at 10:42 PM
Lucilla, thank you for opening your heart and sharing with all of us. This is the best way , I believe to free ones soul... I enjoyed your poem :) peace Ana
Carrillo Avatar
May 24, 2014 at 11:20 PM
Thank you Ana. Writing is good for the soul. Many blessings
Lyle Avatar
May 24, 2014 at 6:21 PM
Hard times but we made the best we could from the hand we were dealt. I hope you are in better health Lucilla ,thank you for sharing this with us,it serves as a reminder that no matter how bad off you are there are always others much worse off. God Bless you Andy
Carrillo Avatar
May 24, 2014 at 6:56 PM
Thank you Andy. It's nice of you to stop by. You are so right. The hand we were dealt is what we got, but the end everything balances out. God is good.
Callus Avatar
May 24, 2014 at 2:34 PM
Hi Lucilla! Your title applies to everybody, but the circumstances are definitely different. Yours has not been an easy life, yet you go about with such a positive attitude that I have to admire you. Take care and God bless. :) // paul
Carrillo Avatar
May 24, 2014 at 5:27 PM
Thank you Paul. I have had my share of problems, but life goes on. With my friends and family's prayers I go on. I have learned to live one day at a time. In God I trust. He has the last word.
Carroll Avatar
May 24, 2014 at 12:26 PM
Heartfelt and honest write Lucilla! Buen dia..
Carrillo Avatar
May 24, 2014 at 1:12 PM
Thank you Ken, que tu tambien tengas un buen dia.
Dietrich Avatar
May 23, 2014 at 8:40 PM
Lucilla, keep doing what you are doing. I enjoy reading your words and I am glad you have these lovely habits. Sorry about your middle years and the man who you loved with whom it did not work out. I think you must be blessed with your daughter and grandchildren.
Carrillo Avatar
May 23, 2014 at 8:50 PM
Hi Andrea, right now this is all I can do. I still have problems to read and write, but I do it, to keep myself busy. Life is good.
Duggan Avatar
May 23, 2014 at 8:26 PM
Lucilla in my eyes you are one of the bravest people I have ever met, I really and truly applaud you, you have had such a hard life compared to a lot of us and writing it all down for us to read, it takes courage my dear so please take care of yourself.Your friend always......Vera..........
Carrillo Avatar
May 23, 2014 at 8:46 PM
Thank you Vera. In my poetry - I write a lot about myself. Sometimes we don't have a choice, but to be brave..
Allison Avatar
May 23, 2014 at 4:34 PM
Wonderful bio Lucilla I really enjoyed reading it from start to finish. it must so hard to look back on your life and put it down on paper especially the hard times you have come through. hugs as ever Jan xxxx
Carrillo Avatar
May 23, 2014 at 5:35 PM
thank you Jan. I think that we all go through hard times in our lives. At the end everything is alright and if it's not - it's because it is not the end yet.
Smith Avatar
May 23, 2014 at 3:17 PM
What a wonderful story...That must have been hard...love Tim
Carrillo Avatar
May 23, 2014 at 5:31 PM
Yes Tim, it was not easy, but if it was we would not have stories to tell and life would be boring.
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