What was I saying

I don't want to imply that it was bad. but what I've seen is drenched in black. And I don't want to feel this way for you. So scrape me out of you, and I'll lead you out of me. I don't want to live this way for you. Only time will tell how this will end there's to many scars to heal against And I don't want to die this way for you. So take me by my wounded hands I don't want to be your f$%#ing friend I don't want to be away from you so look deep within my eyes push in past this frail disguise I could never be that strong for you so scrape me out of you and ill RIP you out of me I don't want to live this way with you. Its chaste in the way that this will end dejection is my only friend I don't wanna fight for you.