What If

These two words I dread. Realizing that life is too short To have regrets. All that I want to say Cannot make its way Out of these lips That want to meet yours Face to face. From my mind To this paper Are as far as these words will go. One day Someway I will have to courage To speak these feelings That I have constantly been dealing with That have no place to call home, So this journal Is where they stay safe and calm. But these emotions of love and desire Just want to escape From my body who needs some relief, Some clarity. But I let them build up, Like I am helping my inner being And giving myself my own type of charity. What if you'll never feel the same? What if you will someday make me feel pain, Heartbreak? What if we try and fail? What if one of us falls and the other sails? These are the questions that I face, That make me stay away. However, what if optimism and hope conquer my fears Of betrayal and disappointment? And my heart fills with the remembrance Of our good times and our laughter So the question That really should be answered is: What if we fall in love and live happily ever after?