What If

Why is it so hard to understand a man who now looks at you so different it’s the look of lost love the dieing of ones soul the look of faded memories that you could never get back or relive so I sit and I ponder on the thought of what if like what if wee were to never meet would I be in the same scenario but with another man and what if I had never had a child would my life’s path go the same way or would it veer off to another direction and what if I had never made it through the heart ache and tears would I be looking down on this man who has the same life now but with another woman would the sun shine as bright and the rain as cold would the wind still whisper the secrets of the past and would the earth be round or would it be as first thought flat these things twist and turn inside my head till bang they crash in to reality and then nothing I wake up just to the sound of rain on my window its like its tapping to tell me that the questions of life are answered but still they are under lock and key but one day I will tell the story of life to every one in the world but first I must un lock my heart for the answer lies there but for me I need to find my inner beauty for my inner beauty is the key