What I Learned

You were right, But there was, something deeper inside. That I learned. I'm not insecure, fully at least. But there is this feeling, That I can never cease. This one reason, I try so hard. This one reason, I go to far. What I yern, Is to be Wanted. Too many people, go though my life. Too many people, put me to the side. I was the outcast, I was the Shy. I never fit in. I was never a "cool guy". What helped me, to Find this infomation, deep inside me. Was my past. For I thought, If I died, in that flipping of my car. Would anyone miss me? Would anyone care, that I was gone? Would anyone say, what a same hes gone? For too many people, I got nothing back. I felt like, I wasn't ever here. I wanted to feel special, even if it was only one. Someone who wanted, to be with me. Someone who would care, when I'm not seen. For I felt so alone, and so afraid. That my life meant nothing. But to one person, to you, I could be something. I try to treat you right, I try to be the best. I try to be there, when ya sad. I try to hard, and look where I am now. But I'm learning, just like you. I know why you do things. And why your sad. Why your afraid, of things happening again. For your like me, we both want to be free. Free from our pasts, that keep happening to us. I won't try so hard, anymore, I won't kill ya, to see if your good. But all I need to know. Am I special to you?