What I Am - Homeless and Blind

What have I done? My anger leads to the divorce… I kept relying on this force, Tugging me constantly Where will my dreams lead me? And I was getting off course of course I slept in, pondering about you and dreaming of you, Riding a horse and finishing my evening chores With you by my side Are you up and about? Would you like a wild ride? You’re eyes are as deep blue as the sea What have I done? My hopelessness has reached God’s ears at last This hardship has just begun…bon voyage, long lost lover of mine! Live for the now and look forward to the future – let’s just leave everything in the past The journey is merely the beginning…I’m not feeling all that fine…sipping my favorite wine… Sipping my favorite wine, playful as a filthy swine… Rolling in the dirt and feeling various chills go down my spine – but, feeling unfortunate gravity weigh me down – happiness doesn’t last… Stress Level – Extremely low Bull****! My stress is far from low – even I know! Where am I? I lost my wealth…I’ve lost my garden… Where am I? I am in the hospital…I can’t live another day like this, living in this wrecked-up mess-of-a-house! I am so weak compared to you – you’re the gigantic cat and I’m the puny mouse! Where am I? I’ve lost everything literally! My job went down the drain due to being fired and all I’ve lost my children! I’ve lost every dream I’ve dreamt all my life – I’m trying my best to stand tall Hear me as I call! Where am I? Do you even care? Do you listen to me at all? Catch me as I fall…fall…fall into the black hole of my mind There – you’ll find me…all naked, ashamed and blind I’ve lost all of my MONEY! My fortune! My reputation and fame is ruined completely! I’ve lost my grip of reality, engaging myself in my lust and fantasies, chained to my captivity I gottah get up and try…though I’ve lost the battle Though I didn’t run the extra mile – I feel like fatigued cattle! Have I lost my faith and forgot about Him for real? Have I lost my high hopes and was I made out of cheap steel? Have I lost my head? Have I gave in to past, present and future dread? ___________________________________________ [Am I alive or dead?] There was a monster, devouring all of my positive thoughts, flowing through my head… (barreling through my head)x3 Basking in regret and I want your joy instead! There was this disaster, Running through my mind... There's no merry-charmed treasure to find Trying to make a cherry-top decision... Not expecting this unexpected...separation! This bad news left me doubtful, scared and blind! Don't mind me - don't let it get to me... This truck load of dread This is what I am - Homeless, blind and dead Don't let the bad news get to you or you'll be a butchered lamb, Bleeding out blemishing dread