What a Bad Deal

Its 17 years since I sat in your cells Seems like yesterday As I am still living in that hell My mind is groggy But my eyes are clear Most days are dark There is no cheer I was abused, it was my brother I know it sounds sad But there was also others Nonse's, go to court, and they tell their lies But can anyone see the pain in our eyes Does anyone know, what this does to the mind It don't go away, or ease with time The police would not listen When it was first reported I started the drugs The coke I snorted He ruined my life My life is a mess And now he is dead Will I ever rest I want a job, I love to work But with a record like mine, I feel a jerk NO-one wants to give criminals a chance All I get is that funny glance Mum and dad, now you are dead I think its time , these words are said Both were drunks, who did not care What chance did we have When you was not there We know he was a bully, he also hurt you too But I would have got the police That you did not do He hurt us all with his sick sick ways But you did nothing, on those painfull days Abuse is a killer, it eats at your mind And peace in myself is so hard to find Its 25 years since I moved away And the other sibling, I don't see to this day what a messed up family