Wham Bam

Wham Bam not even a thank you ma’am, was I hit by a Mack truck or slapped in the face where I stand? The severity of it, but to you a job well done, the patting yourself on the back knowing that I had nowhere to run You knew my situation, you knew all about my sordid hell, the one that I confided in you about finally releasing myself from that cell But releasing myself into what? Into whose arms? The man that I knew for all of two minutes? The one that intrigued me with his charm Why was I so needy, why was I looking for love back then? When all that I found was a nightmare that for my mind it never ends Years wasted, so many years of living in heartbreak, in pain, telling myself you still love me, one day you will end this game A game that you started so many years ago, when I was just a naïve, sweet girl kind and gentle and you used me for part of your sadistic show What did I really lose, a selfish man that lived in fear? A man so indecisive, one that could only taste the salt in his tears? A man of many words, a romantic at least that is what I once believed, you spoke the words of a poet but none of them did you mean I was blinded by the lust of your words, the promises conveyed from your tongue, and stupidly I fell so hard, crushingly, for each and every one Why can’t that side stay the man that speaks so eloquently to me? Why must he be wrapped in the skin of a man whose heart doesn’t beat Why am I here crying over the most passionate three minutes of my life? What seemed to be so wondrous for you was the fastest stabbing of my life The passion that I felt, how I never wished for it to end, but you were all about the reward, you had to be the winner of the race, the only one to make it to the end I had never felt so depleted, so all for naught, I had built the fantasy of you up in my mind now if I could only return to my thoughts The part where the words, the touches, the man, they’re all in sync, but instead I get a watered-down version of what you made me think Is that why I only got what I feel was a two second relationship? Because you were just into the wham bam part of it, and not the fantasy that you wrote for me, I guess you lost that part of the script Why leave me so fast? Why the sudden change of heart on your end? Was it something that I did or didn’t do? I want to understand But I guess that is just what a wham bam man does do, he comes in like a lion and leaves you feeling blue Caught up in his lies, in his false promises, he can’t give to you what you need so instead he does this Oh, if I were like you, the sadistic jerk that you are, I could shame you so badly you would never recover from the scars You’re so insecure, isn’t that the real reason behind the façade? You want to demean others because you know you yourself is a fraud You get off on making others feel bad, for pointing out their flaws, but my friend someone is out there that always knows the truth and is just waiting in the wings to make that call The call that would “ruin you” as you say that is what you have done to them before, all it would take is one little message and life as you know it would be out the door So, Master please tell me what you would like for me to do? Do you want to play this my way, or should I blatantly tell the truth? The truth that you aren’t no Master at all, you can lie to yourself that you’re so high and mighty, but the bigger the ego the harder the fall Just because you can make others do things for you doesn’t mean that you get close enough to touch, wouldn’t that be a pity to see that the master doesn’t take things slow that he’s always in a rush He has to do something to hide his inadequacy, and oh their master, my once love, your secret is safe with me.