Waters of My Mentality

Silence passes me by. Wondering, contemplating why. Why I can't seem to get ahead, and I can only get by. Wondering if anyone will notice me smile, Or notice me cry. Hiding from this painful past, Holding on tight to a future I feel won't last. Gasping for air, for someone to see, Trying to get out of the rough waters of my mentality. Because all the water does is drown me. It never was that big of a struggle for anyone else to tell, Because the struggle is inside my heart, and skin hides it well. Walls of white, soul of black, Someone find the happiness and tell me how I get it back. People in my face, telling me they know what's best, I can't take anymore petty trials and tests. Because they don't know me, They have no idea who I am… And just like the song says, All I can say is so sad so sad. Sometimes I wish I could just feel comfortable in my own skin. Sometimes I wish I could get over the fights I can't win. Sometimes I wish people could see the beauty I hold within. So for now I'm going to look to the sky, thank god I'm still living.