Jessica K Poet I do not know?

Wanting To Feel Again

I gave in again
After holding back so long
Retreating to my old habits
Carving messages on my arm

It's hard to admit now
Because I have such a good life
Yet I've lacked the urge to feel
 Like a black hole swirling inside

Each night, raising the silver
As it colors me red
Digging to find emotions again
While allowing the blade to shred

I believe we were made for more
Than going through life unhappy
So I'd rather slice up my arm like cake
than live life as a zombie

It's not that I really want to cut
But the pain is strong to entice
And the endorphins that kick in: 
savoring 
Though my wrist must pay the price

So i'll continue my routine
Soaked deep in a stained sleeve
But Shhh okay, they still think I'm 
happy
So lets keep this between you and 
me

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Emma Mantle March 20, 2013 at 12:45 PM You have great use of expression. A very powerful piece with much emotion. Have enjoyed reading your work, hope to read more soon. Em :)

David Williams February 23, 2013 at 7:56 AM Jessica you write too well to destroy yourself...David

John Loving Iii February 18, 2013 at 9:27 PM You'll probably end up with a husband that beats you. And people will wonder why you won't leave.

Anne-Lise Andresen February 13, 2013 at 7:23 AM Hope that is "just" a poem, and that you not are sad Jessica. - A touching and very well written poem! - I wish you a nice day. - oxox / / Anne-Lise :)

Justin Bordner February 12, 2013 at 11:33 AM Some would call this self therapy self mutilation, I would say cutting is a method to achieving self awareness Jessica - no shame in that - at least you appreciate your blood - J.A.B. %

... Gigno February 11, 2013 at 9:06 PM !!!