Richard Lamoureux Poet Verse

Waiting For You

I squandered my future,
my past present expended.
Unsteady steps protracted, 
seconds and hours not tended.
My thoughts were not pondered, 
delusional perspectives un-debated.
So many of my mistakes,
could have been anticipated.

Was it my unfounded fear,
that informed my preoccupations?
I could have chosen different,
my foundational miscalculations.
Polite and respectful, 
an untrue participation.
The truth didn’t factor,
into my odd equation.
So I embraced my fear,
which fuelled  my frustration.
Mistake on mistake, 
led me to this destination.

One step forward,
two steps quickly back.
Do you see me sunshine?
My brain going clackity, clack.
I’m the one afraid of shadows,
don’t worry, I won’t attack.
Just a quiet back door seeker
searching for the strength that  I lack.

Tell me please,
what can I do?
I want to be like me,
but just a bit more like you.
So I’m drowning my thoughts, 
 I guess that’s nothing new,
you keep bouncing in my head,
is what you’re offering true?
Now my many mad moments 
are down to a few,
with the last sip of sorrow,
where am I headed too?
Maybe there I’ll find my answers,
will Jesus greet me anew?
Still my greatest final fear,
is he’ll just wait for you!

This piece is from the perspective of a person caught up in addiction.

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Elaine Perrin October 13, 2019 at 5:40 AM Beautifully written. So very powerful :-) x Richard Lamoureux October 13, 2019 at 8:44 AM Thanks Elaine, I appreciate you taking a stroll in my garden.

Juliet Ligon September 20, 2019 at 9:48 AM I can sense the despiration for answers and the need for help. Sad, but moving. Richard Lamoureux September 20, 2019 at 10:11 AM Thanks Sandra. I volunteer as a barber at our local shelter. I see both hope and desperation. I also experienced addiction within my own family. I feel fortunate not to have travelled down the same road.

Pandita Sietesantos September 16, 2019 at 2:09 PM Such a deep, powerful, thoughtful, insightful piece! I know quite a few individuals who have experienced exactly this kind of misery - a most vicious way of life! Bravo! Hugs. Pandita Richard Lamoureux September 20, 2019 at 10:12 AM Thanks Pandit. Hugs Rick.

Eileen Manassian August 30, 2019 at 9:14 PM Thanks for sharing this powerful piece. As always... your faith shines through. Thank you for your visits to my work. I've been unable to come back to the world of poetry. My muse won't cooperate. Maybe soon... hugs Richard Lamoureux August 31, 2019 at 6:23 PM I hope so Eileen. ;0)

Vladislav Raven August 28, 2019 at 12:46 PM Hi Richard, addiction is such a terrible thing. Once so many get on that roundabout, they never find a way off, death awaits and a life wasted. Your thoughts are strong and true on this subject. The imagery is strong and you once more look a topic straight on and creatively, put so many thoughts into this readers mind. It is so sad to see so many, now knowing addiction. As always Richard, this is a powerful piece. Have a wonderful Wednesday. Your friend always....Mike. Richard Lamoureux August 31, 2019 at 6:24 PM SorryI missed this comment Mike. Thanks for the visit.

Punnia Viswan Bhatia August 28, 2019 at 9:34 AM Wonderful piece of writing. Jesus, He knows only to forgive, accept and love more. Richard Lamoureux August 28, 2019 at 9:54 AM Thanks, ;0)

Gordon Mcconnell August 21, 2019 at 10:42 AM Very fine write Richard, really great imagery and insightful thought too. I'm really enjoying your rhyming as you'll I'm a rhyme fanatic!! Richard Lamoureux August 21, 2019 at 11:04 AM Thanks Gordon, I’m pleased you enjoyed this piece.

Edmund Strempfl August 11, 2019 at 10:25 PM Very absorbing psychologically and could feel your thoughts, well written Richard Lamoureux August 12, 2019 at 8:28 AM Thanks Edmund.

Brenda Chiri August 11, 2019 at 9:16 PM Beautifully written Rick! I truly enjoyed I as always;) Richard Lamoureux August 12, 2019 at 8:28 AM Thanks Brenda.

Darlene De Beaulieu August 6, 2019 at 10:04 AM Hello Richard, my answer is : It depends on how strong he is to wait for the person to come. have a nice day my friend. Richard Lamoureux August 6, 2019 at 1:51 PM Thanks Darlene. You as well.

David Mchattie August 6, 2019 at 12:37 AM Addiction is a tough go. I don't have the answer but if a person commits to do only what is meaningful... their live will improve. Have a great day my friend. Richard Lamoureux August 6, 2019 at 1:51 PM You too!

Mystic Rose Rose August 5, 2019 at 11:17 PM Jesus always waits for us to come around, no matter how long the wait, lovely poem Richard, so many can relate to this.

Vegter Papyrus August 3, 2019 at 2:55 PM Paradoxical treat. It grabs the reader from the beginning to end. Creativity is running loose inside of you! And it's a good thing... Richard Lamoureux August 5, 2019 at 6:54 PM Thanks Keith.

Jennifer Proxenos August 2, 2019 at 12:54 PM 'Mistake on mistake led me to this destination'- family, support groups please help this lost afraid soul who is desperately reaching out, and whose hand does he find, but the hand of Jesus who will always be there for this person. Such an awesome write Richard, a fav. Hugs, Jennifer. Richard Lamoureux August 2, 2019 at 6:37 PM I agree Jennifer, thanks for the comment and visit.

Vijay Pandit August 2, 2019 at 10:40 AM You captured the trepidation of a lost soul--no longer in control..and gave voice to this serious illness that traps many..excellent write, Richard. Richard Lamoureux August 2, 2019 at 6:38 PM Thanks Vijay.

Brandy Nicole August 1, 2019 at 10:23 PM "Tell me please, what can I do? Many dealing with an addiction say this. Because, they truly don't know how to overcome what has overcome them. So beautifully expressed and presented. ~ Brandy Richard Lamoureux August 2, 2019 at 1:20 AM People with addiction can only recover when they are connected to people and community. Isolation does not work. Thanks for your comment Brandy.

Mintra Mankasingh July 31, 2019 at 11:16 AM Great Pen Richard Lamoureux July 31, 2019 at 11:22 AM Thanks again Mitra.

Kim Rodrigues July 31, 2019 at 9:15 AM Addiction as in “Welcome to Marwen” - the pill, the hallucination that seeps into the brain, keeping one from getting those things that they seek. My dear nephew still struggles but grows stronger as he leans on Jesus. Oh how the Lord has lit up his eyes! Thanks for the write, Richard. Richard Lamoureux July 31, 2019 at 9:23 AM Thanks Kim. Hugs Rick.

Sandra Adams July 31, 2019 at 8:23 AM Great write on a gripping topic...young people are dying all around me, i hear of it almost weekly, people i drove to school, friend's children, some neighbors, some strangers...it makes one wonder how they feel, you captured it nicely! Well done Rick! :) hugs Richard Lamoureux July 31, 2019 at 9:24 AM So sad to hear that Sandra.

Funom Makama July 30, 2019 at 1:21 PM Wow! This is beautiful. Really, really beautiful. And no matter what, Jesus will definitely greet this personality anew. Wonderful, inspirational and touching. Richard Lamoureux July 30, 2019 at 1:38 PM Thanks Funom, I believe you are right.

Richard Lamoureux July 29, 2019 at 4:46 PM Perhaps it’s a combination of self blame and seeking someone or something to share in his demise. A scapegoat of sorts. Interestingly if he reaches for his Saviour’s hand, all will be forgiven. Let’s just say it could be the fresh start he so desperately needs.

Harry Horsman July 29, 2019 at 4:22 PM The poetry, is as always, Richard, brilliant, i do get the feeling from my perspective, the subject is blaming everyone else for their misdemeanours.. Richard Lamoureux July 29, 2019 at 4:46 PM Hi Harry, see response above.

Heidi Sands July 29, 2019 at 1:56 PM Well written description of people trapped in addiction. Keep up the great writing :) Richard Lamoureux July 29, 2019 at 2:03 PM Thanks Heidi.