Visions

everynight haunted by the pictures my life now a repeat of the scriptures close my eyes its too real im fallin deeper emotions too famailar to me panicing, heart off beat nauseous, cramping, can't even eat its too real it can't be a dream i could feel it and see it is it true cause im starting to believe it supressed memories its all coming back to me so that means he took my virginity what was mine to give he took from me i could see you on top of me pushing yourself inside of me turning what was innocent into incomplete sanity what did you want with me stredded my dignity for all eternity leaving me with nothing but vision and disbeliefs don't have to close my eyes to see you on top of me holding my arms as i lay with my body in shock, silently i hold back tears i don't want you to see the fear throat to stunned to breathe but i don't care i just wanna be free cause till that day comes the vision a repeat more painful, more clearer, and more harder to sleep i reather just rest in peace with my arms crossed awaiting the heavenly peace dear God i'm asking you please i can't live to see another day feeling him inside of me the pain its agony i don't wanna live this way everynight, everyday every couple hours feeling this way im fallin apart glass shattered it resembles me broken, unrepairable you can't fix me what's gone is gone but if you let me i could still live on behind the heavenly gates the pain a be gone no more worrying about the wrong God I know you'll set me free just, do it asap if you know what i mean.