Victimized By Old Butterflies

I walked out on you so you could walk out on me. It was painful to see your tears but it would be worse if you knew about the scars that I didn’t want you to perceive. A broken heart hurt by others who only deceived and took advantage of someone who wanted to believe. I didn’t want to become a beast of burden so I chose to flee. I am dying inside because I can’t breathe without you yet I am still drawn to you like a moth to a flame. Yet because of my past I must hold on to this secret shame. Sadly I only have myself to blame. I want to love and be with you but I am worried it will turn out the same. Rejected by the one who I love and feeling the pain that inside I will die. Asking myself why do I put myself through this torture and say more goodbyes? Inside I internalize the anguish that came from love succumbing to more lies. I recall once again being victimized by old butterflies.