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What do you do when you feel as if everything you do is no good When you try your hardest to do what you could I used to be the best at one time Now i'm not but I say everything is fine I pretend so no one will see All the disappointment I see in me I have had a baby girl I wouldn't change for the world But I wish I could be the same old girl I feel as if I will never be what I want most The old me will forever be a ghost How I deal with these demons inside Some of them come out but most I can hide Sometimes they overtake me when I least expect Can my brain see the me now and be able to accept I don't know but I will try To be the best at everything until the day that I die