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Open your mind Open your heart Look at your life Mine was torn apart Loving you by day Dreaming of you by night I have nothing to live for Just one last fight You slept with my best friend Behind my back Creating so much hate Plus the ability to forgive I lack You messed me up That is a fact I want to kill you But I also want to have you back Who am I really I don't even know that And because history repeats I fear my past If it were to happen again I just wont last So I'm hiding who I am Yeah I got the perfect mask I need to get away I should run away fast And just get the hell out of everyone's life And then never look back But eventually I will have to face the facts Wait that is a coward's thought And I will never be that Bring on the world Bring on all you got I'll take on all my enemies Yeah I got a lot True I created some out of my own friends Just because I don't know who to trust So I made sure all my chances for friendship ends This is what happens when insecurity meets love and lust And after I ended the possibilities I just wanted to bust Breakdown and cry Because I made my self even lower than dust Just because I believed your lies I'm so weak I got blown away by a weak little gust Now this thought sucks How stupid can I be I must forgive you Before I can ask others to forgive me And there is two people I know for sure That hate me but in the end I'm going to need But no I had to go out and plant this defensive seed And now Well they laugh at the thought of me And how much righter can they be They have every right to do so Considering I turned them enemy I tried to use them to reopen a concealed wound A suicidal attempt Because with just one thought I would be consumed Spiraling into the ground I thank God they didn't go through with it Because my strength has been found Its time for me to grow up Be a man and apologize Admit I was wrong Regardless of the pain I have felt for so long Apologize but expect forgiveness I know I don't deserve this So as punishment Lock me in Hell's deepest pits And to the two I will need in the end I don't expect anything to change You will probably never consider me as an ally or a friend You have every reason not to So please enjoy watching me fall Its what I get for what I attempted to do This is what happens when the used try yo use you