Unseen Scars

I'm no longer who I once was seemingly more like a shell. How I ended up this way, well that's really hard to tell. As I was brought up I endured much more than a kid should. Leaving me with a perception of life, knowing more than a kid would. Didn't really help, ended up always learning the hard way. And the more I try seems that things just end in disarray. I know that it's mainly because of bad decision making. Masked behind a excuse to cover my self forsaking. In other words I've always placed blame on things afar. To try to cover up my self inflicted scar.