Akkina Downing Poet Free verse

Unless My Heart Is Happy

Because I needed to find out
 ~ not just feel it.
So I took a dive into the depth of my being,
  there I found her ~ my soul.
Alone, floating in a dim bottomless space 
with her head bends down low, 
but upon sensing my approach,
 she lifted her head to face me.

The instant our eyes met
my heart stopped... frozen in space. 
Tears oozing down hastily.

She's alone, cold and sadness was masking
 her frail face.
Visible streaks of tears gleam.
What have I done to her ~ my soul?

This profound moment has my heart weeping silently 
At a lost of words, soundless scream echoing in my head.
My heart slowly melting into a pot of pain 
I wanted to reach for her and hug her 
to my heart forever.
Her ~ my vulnerable soul

Oh, but baby this is utterly heart shattering,
because I can't! 
I can't help her ~ my soul, 
unless my heart is happy...

            Smile

Akkina R Downing

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Christopher Flaherty January 20, 2021 at 10:49 AM Dearest Akkina After reading this i revert you to my earlier comment i wrote on your sleepless night poem. As it sums up and is in even more ways relevant to this 1. Hugs and blessings

Peter Dome November 24, 2020 at 6:19 PM very emotional. I feel a soil in despair longing to break free. I relate to this great poem a lot. well done. Pete.

Caren Krutsinger November 15, 2020 at 12:22 AM This is cathartic to read; I am a therapist, and one of the things we often teach people is to took for their hurt child and talk to her, let her know that you did not appreciate what others did, that you would have saved her if you could have. This poem reminded me of that strategy that often works. Wow!

Peter Dome November 13, 2020 at 10:10 AM Blown away by expressed emotions here,I feel I live in limbo, pretending everything's ok when inside I'm dying.I relate to you so much and you're wonderful words. Both wounded, but not beyond healing, Love your poetry, it's almost my reflection. Take care. Well done. Akkina Downing November 13, 2020 at 10:42 AM Pete, you honored me with your kind comments, and I truly appreciate it. I’m deeply happy you liked my poems... hugs :)

Angela Crabtree November 12, 2020 at 9:27 AM Beautiful poem, Akkina. Yes, the heart must be happy to move on. Saved to read again :) Akkina Downing November 13, 2020 at 10:40 AM You’re sweet, Angela, thank you so much... xoxo

Jennifer Proxenos November 12, 2020 at 1:36 AM Creative, thought provoking, original and quite amazing. A very different write, i truly enjoy your style of poetry Akkina, Hugs and blessings, Jennifer. Akkina Downing November 13, 2020 at 10:39 AM Thank you so much, Jenny... xoxo

Regina Mcintosh November 3, 2020 at 4:33 AM so beautifully done... so creative and original. LOVE THIS :) God bless you dear lady :) Akkina Downing November 3, 2020 at 1:03 PM Thank you, Regina

Paghunda Zahid July 28, 2020 at 9:10 PM Loved this poem Akkina Downing November 3, 2020 at 1:03 PM Thank you so much

Paul Callus March 29, 2020 at 5:35 AM Hi Akkina! Stopping by to read your last post again, while wondering how life is on your side of the fence! Hope all is well, especially in these troubled times. ~ Stay safe...warm regards // paul Akkina Downing November 3, 2020 at 1:06 PM Paul, thank you so much

James Horn March 23, 2020 at 9:27 AM Are you still around? Akkina Downing November 3, 2020 at 1:09 PM Yes Mr Horn, I’m back :)

James Edward Lee Sr. January 6, 2020 at 11:38 AM For yes your heart is 'Happy" be bless in your bliss and Smile : ) Lovely write James Akkina Downing November 3, 2020 at 1:07 PM Thank you my friend

FJ Thomas January 1, 2020 at 11:12 AM Akkina my dear sister... the pain, the very depth of anguish. I have a similar one; I just refer to my inner self as my muse. This is intense and amazing. I hope you're okay over there. Akkina Downing November 3, 2020 at 1:07 PM FJ, thank you so much :)

Tracy Storrier July 31, 2019 at 12:32 PM Loved this poem, many thanks for sharing :o) x

Bernardo F. Asuncion February 17, 2019 at 8:34 PM Just a lovely poem, dear Akkina. Please read my new poem KEEP KINDNESS INSIDE... Thanks... James Horn March 23, 2020 at 9:30 AM Do you know where Akkina is? Is she still writing poems?

Andrea Dietrich February 10, 2019 at 8:04 PM I see I saw your last poem posted here. Please let me know if there are any past poems of yours I may have missed, Akkina. James Horn March 23, 2020 at 9:29 AM Do you know where Akkina is?

James Inman October 16, 2018 at 11:29 PM This is such a lovely and touching poem Akkina.

James Edward Lee Sr. September 1, 2018 at 11:09 AM Just had to revist this wonder write... Enjoying your poetic verse !!! =D Write on James

Al Juman July 9, 2018 at 12:30 PM Loverly piece my dear Love is love is great

Harry Horsman May 19, 2018 at 8:36 AM What a wonderful deep profound poem this is, Akkina, so glad to have found and read it....

S.Zaynab Kamoonpuri May 7, 2018 at 1:23 AM Wow a soulful imaginative poem, written in a soul searching moving appealing style. The poem should delight your heart and we all could reach deep down our soul. . Kudos. Soo nice to read from your pen again. I luv interaction in this cold world, Pleez add your thoughts/comment to my newest poem too, or this world feels too robotic ah

Marquis Mc Mills-Cooper May 6, 2018 at 1:27 AM Akkina, this poem is flooded with feelings and induces emotion. To read it is to feel it and be consumed by it. You did well here. MC

Faraz Ajmal May 5, 2018 at 12:45 PM Hi Akkina, such a beautiful poem this is, full of emotions and a really enjoyable one to read, many people s heart is broken in this world, we can pretend to be fine with a smile on our face but many times the reality is different, our heart is broken, broken into many pieces, but this is life, it will go on and on, and God don t test anyone more than that person can bear, every broken soul will find a purpose to smile and a purpose to live, good luck and a really nice written poem this is

Robert Lindley April 28, 2018 at 9:12 AM My friend, yet again you deliver a jewel that shines!!! And thus shines your immense talent, as we are so fortunate as to find and read.... A fav....

Darlene De Beaulieu April 25, 2018 at 7:16 PM Hello Akkina,I agree with Chuck, this poem does jump off the page as pain. I felt the pain as i was reading. Have a nice evening my friend. Akkina Downing April 25, 2018 at 9:07 PM Thank you so much my dear friend... Hugs :)

Chuck Melugin April 25, 2018 at 8:05 AM Dear Akkina... The originality jumps off the page as the pain causes the separation to continue! Excellent!! Akkina Downing April 25, 2018 at 9:07 PM Thanks so much Chuck.. Hugs :)

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