Understanding (The Night Before Parole)

Sometimes I close my eyes real tight and in the darkness I do find Answers to the many questions that dwell inside my mind It seems that in the darkness I can more clearly see What has been is not what is or will someday be Some memories last way to long while others fade to fast Somethings in life drag on forever and others never last There is no right there is no wrong what is left and right It’s all just an illusion that we hold inside our sight I've been rich and I've been poor and know it is no joke Many people you cross in life are a different type of folk Some games are made for winning and others made to lose Sometimes in life you just can't help but be full of the blues Yesterday is gone forever and tomorrow you just can't tell That’s why living in today is the way to break the spell The spells are born from the demons that live inside your ghost And as you look into the mirror they are the ones you hate the most You want to scream you want cry you want to cuss and fight But instead you curl up on your rack for one last sleepless night Your muscles ache your soul is tired and your heart it feels real sore Sometimes it’s hard to stay in-tune with what it is all for It’s so once again you can hold your head up high Know that you have earned the right to look through your mirrors eyes Life is short and fading fast I can feel it in my bones The time has come to make myself a place I can call home Sometimes in life it seems that no matter what price we pay Those we love with all our hearts just start to fade away I have laughed and I have cried and through them both I've found There is no-body else to blame for I have let you down My love has seemed to let you down I have failed to hold your heart And inside I feel like dying as I feel us drift apart Funny how the mind does work as it twist and bends The fact is I'm not losing my lover I'm regaining my friend Written for my dearest friend My Wife Antoinette the last night that I spent in prison. That was almost 5 years ago.