Undelivered Letter To My Dad

Dear dad

I doubt you remember the first word I uttered
Having a hard time recollecting your memories in my nervous system
When you are that young, feelings are not altered
You did not pounce on the opportunity of unconditional love
Instead, you let go, you left love unattended
If these words are not bouncing off a shield, that means you never fought for me
All I needed was two minutes
I do apologise if I was the kid you never wanted
God is still having a hard time disposing off my tears; he can't give them back to me
You substituted life with material things; I hope it's what you wanted
All I needed was you, nothing else
Despite your actions, in my heart I still defended you
Paint a picture perfect day I will spend with you
All these efforts to no avail, but I was left staring disappointment in the face
The questions I had dissolved with time
Yes, anger consumed me until I was forced to attend to it
You'll be surprised as to how much pain human beings can endure
By the way, she still loves you, I do not know why
I decided to live for her
She sees you in all of us

Unfortunately that is the love you will never be able to get your hands on again
I forgive you.

Until we meet again

Your loving son
Copyright © | Year Posted 2014

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Song Avatar
September 2, 2014 at 7:23 AM
You have been delivered of the hand of the enemy as forgiveness has moved into your once broken heart. Every tear of yours over this situation is stored wonderfully in precious vials in heaven. Not a single one lost! A joy to read your heart's song. God bless u!
Mthethwa Avatar
September 2, 2014 at 7:34 AM
Thank you very much. Writing to me is better than talking about it, it's a healing process. Thank you for your comment once again
Costello Avatar
August 10, 2014 at 10:29 AM
Phumlani- Enjoyed your writing--Heartbreaking! Powerful expression of resiliency. We not only endure--we overcome, don't we.
Mthethwa Avatar
August 11, 2014 at 12:59 AM
We have to Christine, you have to make peace with the past to avoid the war in the future. Thank you for your comment
Dunn Avatar
June 27, 2014 at 8:06 PM
What a touching work, I've cried a few tears over my bad childhood also. As we share many things in common here, I wish I could have said many things to my mother. But she passed away before I could, I would read this poem to her and say a few more things also. This is a powerful work so I gave you the highest number I could because it is so heart felt, and well expressed. I will be back to read more of your fine artist work bravo my dearest new poet welcome again to the soup, cheri
Mthethwa Avatar
June 30, 2014 at 5:33 AM
Thank you very much. God has given us a chance to make a difference, let's not make our kids pen down the same words in the future.
Carrillo Avatar
June 24, 2014 at 6:00 PM
PH.; Your poem brings tears to my eyes. My daughter's dad also left. She saw him 40 years later. I invite you to read ( Father's Day ) it's on page 1 have blessed day.... Lucilla
Mthethwa Avatar
June 25, 2014 at 2:18 AM
It was very hard to write. Every child deserves to be surrounded by both their parents cause each of them play different roles in your heart. Bottom line is we need them. The best thing your dauther can do is to forgive, free herself.
Hyler Avatar
June 24, 2014 at 10:46 AM
Thank you for sharing :) It touched me.
Mthethwa Avatar
June 25, 2014 at 2:20 AM
The amazing thing is that the subject does not know I feel this way. Thank you for your comment
Aniagyei Avatar
June 24, 2014 at 10:12 AM
Touching, very very touching! ......... filled with forgiveness
Mthethwa Avatar
June 25, 2014 at 2:25 AM
God wouldn't give you obstacles you can't overcome. At some point I had to put it on paper, share it amongst us. Let's love our kids, prevent hurting them emotionally. Thank you for your comment
Sathasivam Avatar
June 24, 2014 at 9:01 AM
Excellent. Very touching write. Tfs
Mthethwa Avatar
June 25, 2014 at 2:26 AM
Thank you very much. Although not complicated, some words are just hard to pen down.
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