Undelivered Letter To My Dad

Dear dad I doubt you remember the first word I uttered Having a hard time recollecting your memories in my nervous system When you are that young, feelings are not altered You did not pounce on the opportunity of unconditional love Instead, you let go, you left love unattended If these words are not bouncing off a shield, that means you never fought for me All I needed was two minutes I do apologise if I was the kid you never wanted God is still having a hard time disposing off my tears; he can't give them back to me You substituted life with material things; I hope it's what you wanted All I needed was you, nothing else Despite your actions, in my heart I still defended you Paint a picture perfect day I will spend with you All these efforts to no avail, but I was left staring disappointment in the face The questions I had dissolved with time Yes, anger consumed me until I was forced to attend to it You'll be surprised as to how much pain human beings can endure By the way, she still loves you, I do not know why I decided to live for her She sees you in all of us Unfortunately that is the love you will never be able to get your hands on again I forgive you. Until we meet again Your loving son