Uncertainty in certainty

A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single stride, Time dances swiftly, feels like yesterday’s tide, When I first set foot on this school’s sacred ground, Hope in my heart, innocence all around. I remember the prayers, the anticipation so grand, Wrestling with angels, like Jacob, I’d stand, “God, if You don’t do it, no one else can,” Pouring my heart out, like a desperate man. Sleepless nights echoed with fervent pleas, Disturbing the peace, bringing Jiri to her knees, “Shut it down,” she would say, but only I could see, What I sought from the heavens, my fervent decree. It was a do-or-die affair, I couldn’t relent, Longing to be a student, my heart was intent, High school movies danced in my mind’s eye, Unaware of the stakes, the truth cloaked in lie. Not all that glitters is diamond, I’ve come to find, I wish I had known, had prepared my mind, Should I say I wasn’t ready? The answer’s unclear, But the journey unfolds, and I’ll face what’s near.