U Hope

it is funny how it starts..... all over again... first for a few hours then many hours not sleeping not dreaming not remembering.... thinking what you did what you thought what you had you still try to remember when the last time you were hurt slowly resigned but not completely you keep waking up alone; someone has shut the dooe you think you hear the whisper of ????? feel that you know someone is looking in on you or... you are trying to convince yourself that you know someone one cares is that what you are awake for????? are you watching and waiting to to see if someone is watching you and if someone cares for you????? maybe...?.you know.... somewhere in the bottom of your fickle heart that is not what is happening you turn over and you start all over to try and dream someone cares...again by janetta