Two Seconds Away

I'm just two seconds away from losing my mind... I worry ,toss, and turn and sleep is hard to find... The things I go through no one knows the Hell in which I live... He takes and all i do is give, give, give... Always taking blame for any wrong doing... Him always acting like "He's the one ".... Crying and staying weak come to find was his way of keeping me down... My Mom told me over the years "Never let them see you frown"... As I get older and learn to accept my place in this life... I learned laughter and ignorance went along way in the strife... Over time he noticed less and less... That his tantrum and my reaction would leave him to guess... In a head that he thought was his stomping ground.... He learned that I was different and would look around... We had our years and it wasn't always a dream... But years later I realized it wasn't as bad as he made it seem... Cause over time he would come to realize... That the scared little girl look was no longer in my eyes... For I had grown and gained strength in all of those "life moments" too... To the point now he knows what not to do.