Two-Way War

I'm stuck in the middle of a two-way war. The only thing is, I don't understand what it's for. I know what I want, and that's what should count. There is nothing else that should equally amount. Yet I let the dreams of others get in the way. I feel so inferior, and have nothing to say. I live my life to satisfy others, But in the end, it's me who smothers. I know that we have only one life to live, But in the end my choice to others I give. Many times this causes fear. I become mad. I begin to feel even more insecure and sad. I'm sad that I allow others tell me what to do. If I'd stand up for myself, my emotions would no more stew. Being torn by anything is really hard on me. From all this turmoil, I just want to be free. It seems to be a punishment for all the wrong I did. Personally, it's something of which I want to be rid. However, until I can tell what all this is for, I guess it's just a negative that I will have to endure.