Turning To Turquoise

Verse 1: My destiny... My dignity... Is all gone since you left me with nothing to lose I'm willing to let go of this grudge in my heart...cut loose the noose That's around my neck Give me your love peck Give me a break and drive me to Beverly Hills Or I will overdose on my painstaking pills The pills that you pumped out of my stomach It kills me to remember my suicidal attempts, knowing that I failed and there's no coming back Hold me close and make me moan a million moans Harsh Words won't make me break my brittle bones My skin is pale as a moonlight Shake loose the solitude tonight Be my sunshine and sunset and our spirits met Don't get me upset and I'm positivity's pet Don't do something to me that you will regret Catch me like fish in the net...fly me in your jet Pre-chorus: I can't be on my own, So what about you answer your phone? Silence is putting my life at risk...I will reject alone I higher my hands to the sky of scarlet bliss You are the island of isolation that I miss Chorus: You are as refreshing as Brisk...you're my Change your tone of voice Leaving me with no choice, But to go back to the turning tables of my past Hope turns to dust and I can't rejoice because joy does last My black insides can't match up with my white outsides Turning to turquoise the moment you broke my heart of glass and oh such bad news My sinful nature taints the holiness of my soul...it subsides from all sides Pass away, the negativity that backtracks the rhythm of blues Verse 2: My wrongs... My rights... You memorized my speech from my lips Never really achieved the ability to get my grips Kiss me, abstract abyss and caress me with distress Because I can't have you in my arms...you departed from them long ago, I guess Suddenly, I have to ask for forgiveness For the lack of progress that led me to this mess of far too little success Numbness is rubbed against my body...I'm a good blood, your heart's melody Hopeless in the lost in a multitude...feeling nude It gets harder and harder everyday to live...I need somebody! I want somebody! Keep me in your pocket...and stop being so rude You make me dance In a paradise prance It's common sense to show me how much you love me Don't say I'm dense or I'll leave your presence frankly Pre-chorus: I can't be on my own, So what about you answer your phone? Silence is putting my life at risk...I will reject alone I higher my hands to the sky of scarlet bliss You are the island of isolation that I miss Chorus: You are as refreshing as Brisk...you're my Change your tone of voice Leaving me with no choice, But to go back to the turning tables of my past Hope turns to dust and I can't rejoice because joy does last My black insides can't match up with my white outsides Turning to turquoise the moment you broke my heart of glass and oh such bad news My sinful nature taints the holiness of my soul...it subsides from all sides Pass away, the negativity that backtracks the rhythm of blues Verse 3: Erase me... That's my plea... I hand you forget me nots You untied the knots...just as my heart rots I haven't forgotten you because you are the highlight of my entire life I don't know what to call you - my husband or wife? I know I've done you so much harm... My faithful friend, my companion of compassion I'll be your blankets to keep you warm... My genius mastermind, my wondrous passion My apologies, perplexed out of my mind because you love me, despite all I've done just for the sake of the demented fun My condolences, I ignored your compliments and I owe you all my thanks, my shimmering sun Bleeding...turning to emerald stone Breathing...unsafe in this land of alone... I hear your echoing envy...Pity... I feel your helping hand, empty Pre-chorus: I can't be on my own, So what about you answer your phone? Silence is putting my life at risk...I will reject alone I higher my hands to the sky of scarlet bliss You are the island of isolation that I miss Chorus: You are as refreshing as Brisk...you're my Change your tone of voice Leaving me with no choice, But to go back to the turning tables of my past Hope turns to dust and I can't rejoice because joy does last My black insides can't match up with my white outsides Turning to turquoise the moment you broke my heart of glass and oh such bad news My sinful nature taints the holiness of my soul...it subsides from all sides Pass away, the negativity that backtracks the rhythm of blues Verse 4: I lost my train of thought All I am is a lonely ghost, so distraught Giving in to confidence I have no where else to turn to, just repentance I have people that care about me But I'm in despair, can't they see? I'm a monster, miserably in the closet I'm a disaster, jealousy leads to regret Go away...drown away the sorrow It left me with yesterday and no tomorrow I'm telling you, I can't undo this shame I carry with me I can't just change overnight...it's not a possibility It's impossible to change my attitude, but you can motivate my aptitude It's impossible to turn me to vermillion, but your empathy is needed along with an attitude of gratitude This frustration, forever caught in a precious, yet vicious nightmare Is too much to bear...it's unfair... Faced with the reflection of my hideous face in the shattered mirror On my own without a care...people stop and stare Try to catch me if you can...if you can... Dare to wonder how I feel inside, man