Tumor

There’s a tumor growing deep down in my soul Pleading with me for full control There’s a fire burning beyond within Suffocating me in all my sin There’s a revolution brewing beneath and between All I have ever known and seen. At times my life feels like a dream, At times my life is not what it seems. There’s a rabbit hole I’m falling through Transforming all I’ve ever knew There’s an emptiness that fades to black I’m not sure how I will ever get back. At times my life feels like a dream, At times my life is not what it seems. Pressure squeezes the essence of me Its dark inside…I cannot see Banging my head against all I find Waiting for a definitive sign There’s a rebellion draped in uncertainty Constantly opposing and oppressing me There’s a heart that once pounded on purpose Now I live inside this circus But I’m the only clown in here I’m the one I have to fear. At times my life feels like a dream At times my life is not what it seems Self is worse than any enemy It’s what quietly tries to deceive me I must break away from who I am And get back up and try again I must hold true to what is real Allow myself to heal and feel I must arrest the attacker in my head Forgive all the things I did and said I must raise the banner in an attempt to make peace I must once and for all kill this beast. At times my life feels like a dream At times my life is not what it seems. By: