Trust

How can I trust you when I can’t trust myself? How am I suppose to give you a hundred percent of something that my mind wont allow myself to have? I’m learning as days go by that my mind is loki and my body is a playground for him to torment and fabricate his reality. My mind can make me go to the ER to get checked for chest pains only to reveal nothing but laughter. Theres nothing wrong with you, I hear that voice, but loki just drowns it out and keeps me up at night thinking if I shut my eyes then that’s it! Hungry but cant eat, tired but cant sleep, all because of my mind playing tricks on me. So you ask for my trust, but how can I trust you when I cant trust myself