Trauma

Have I blocked out every trauma Is it real or subconscious drama I ask myself if this is amnesia have I suffered an infarct or seizure So many things I have suppressed things that need to be addressed lingering memories of molestation perpetrator's without incarceration Who is accountable for these horrific crimes if the memories are embedded and confined how do we investigate that which we obliterate the mind has built up walls that we can't penetrate Is my mind protecting me from indecencies the thoughts are never ending ceaselessly I try to bring them to the forefront, concentrate close my eyes in a dark room and I meditate Do I dare undergo some hypnosis or have I acquired some psychosis why can't I recall or commemorate I'm unable to decipher or disseminate I acknowledge and eternalize the existence but why is my consciousness full of resistence why doesn't it allow the memory to release so that my whole mind could be at peace I emerge and deliberate into deep thought the criminals must be apprehended, caught this is a battle that I've consistently fought justice is what I have diligently sought There must be some lessons learned so that others will not be burned parents please be leary of your friends they may be hiding some unspeakable sins