Transcendence
My world crumbles, but I'm uncertain how to seize,
Myself or the hand proffered, unsure if it brings ease.
Once more I see in hues of black and white,
Where did the vibrant colors fade from sight?
Within, my mind and heart engage in strife,
Am I content or merely drifting through life?
Is this unique to me or shared by all,
Should I endure or surrender, rise or fall?
Vanish, I yearn, to flee from it all,
No opinions or suggestions, let me withdraw.
It's killing me, yet I dare not speak,
They said, "Your changing mind makes us feel weak."
What transpires, what am I doing here?
A respite I seek, from thoughts and duties near.
For one day I'm splendid, the next burdened by life,
Perplexed, I wander through this ongoing strife.
Fatigue consumes, draining my very soul,
How can I laugh when joy won't take its toll?
How can I find happiness, an unfamiliar sensation,
Lost amidst a realm of emotional negation?
Sometimes I ponder if I fear the glee,
For breathing freely has eluded me.
To smile with all my heart, I know not how,
Or express my emotions, courage I must allow.
Grown I am, yet unlearning sorrow's art,
Transgressing boundaries, embracing life's start.
To unveil my preferences, long suppressed,
Freedom to choose, a newfound quest.
Perhaps I've never truly grasped happiness' grace,
Its essence, its warmth, I can scarcely trace.
Copyright © Maya Evans | Year Posted 2023
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