Train of Thoughts

i`m on the train,no going back a lonely sight, this railroad track no idea how far i will get way off in that big sunset away i`ll go to start a new life leaving behind my kids and wife i`m truly sorry leaving them in debt coz i like women, whiskey and a bet also sorry to all others i`ve blamed i now realize and i am so ashamed for being out drinking, never at home while my wife brings up the kids on her own suppose my leaving will be a relief all i have given her is lots of grief my running away will break her free one day maybe she will forgive me in my heart i don`t want to go coz i really do love her so i must go though, and mend my ways hopefully come back one of these days prove myself a much better man i can do it, i just know i can its up to me ,decide my fate i just hope, that she will wait so off i`ll go, no idea where i`ll be living just hoping the wife and kids are forgiving why did i have to go and deliberately shame her if she hates my guts,how can i blame her so with some help from the lord above i hope i can prove and show my love to the only three people that matter to me my two kids,and my sweet loving lady so i`m heading off to start a new life hopefully one day with my kids and wife what they will do she will need to ponder i hope absence does make the heart grow fonder but if she remarries to another man i guess i would really understand only one person could be blamed i see and that fool, would of course be me