Today

18 years had past and i knew it all, just living carefree, having a ball. Thought i knew love, true love i was sure, Got engaged to get married was certain i was ready for a little house on the hill, and kids to adore. Boy i was wrong, i wish i had known that i was still a baby i wasn't yet grown. Looking back i knew the basics thats it, and deep in side i really still was and always will be just a kid. So a few years pass and then a few more, and i faced challenges and life skills galore. I travelled to far away places, Learnt different cultures, saw paradise and sands, best of all met so many interesting people on those far away lands, I appreciated the sun, because i felt the rain , My heart broke often seeing people and children in pain. I promised then to be thankful and appreciate all and never take things for granted again, thats for sure. I vowed to leave hate and negative behind and instead, fill my life with love and i try to always be kind. I had a career, boy those years flew because suddenly i found my self saying i was 32. By then i had become a mum, thats when i felt love, the most unconditional type from my toes up, real love for each of my sons. My boys kept me busy and i loved every second, i even enjoyed the mundane everyday things like errands. I watched my boys grow , my cup was full now, my heart wanted to explode of how much i loved them and how i was proud. Next minute, like i travelled through time i was looking at grey hairs and yes they were mine. By now i was 45, and happy just being alive. But wondering what had happened where the time went? It just flew on by, not one breathe did i take or was this just a dream which soon ill awake? No dream sadley time did pass quick, but i learnt alot of things and about how people tick. I sadly realised people weren't actually living there dream instead like robots doing the same daily routine. Always owing money for something, carrying stress and making less. Making the rich richer and yep the poor poorer and all the while dreaming of being a mighty explorer, or sitting on a beach with no cares in the world, but sadley watching from outside i realised that it seemed to be out of reach. Instead trying to pay back that mortgage for a house they will never really own, and living there life to die and give everything to there kids when they are grown. A sad reality i did awaken and see and i swore right then that i would not let that be me. So i am the wild one now they say, just because i wont confirm to there ways. I don't work for pay checks day in and out, I live for the now, today is what it's about. I don't let the past define me and tommorrow doesn't exist in my eyes yet. You see time goes so fast to dwell on the past and i cant plan to far ahead, because honestly who knows i could even be dead. So today is my everything and a gift, every new day and i live how i want in every which way. I don't watch the clock or go to bed by 10, i make the most of every second that i can and just enjoy all the mysteries the universe does send. So what i can tell you is look around , breathe in the air, take your shoes off let your feet touch the ground, see the place you have been gifted to live and let yourself be the best version of you, while you connect back to the life we are truely ment to live. Let love fill your heart and be kind to all, show empathy when needed be that soft place for others to fall, listen to others, let them tell you there stories. Acknowledge there ups, downs and even goreys. You will find a better you and others will definitely feel it too. So as the sun goes down on this today, think of all the good things you have done, as the sky darkens and the sun fades away, always remember to not look back, focus on the now and you will always stay on track.