Today

I watched you cry today, as they laid her to rest. I couldn't tell what you were thinking but I knew that you were hurting. A piece of me died as we stood there at her grave. Torn apart from the world with no where to go. Thought that the drugs would never get the best of her but in the end it did. She layed there looking so helpless, and disassociated from us all. I couldn't tell you the things that were going through my head. My mind, was spinning and I couldn't even stand up on my own. Spread her ashes through the ocean thats where she wants them to be. There goes the funeral procession and I can't bring myself to move. I wish that I could have told her so many things. I can't help but shed tears for she didn't even know that I had forgiven her. She left without even telling me that she cared. Sometimes I wonder what you are trying to say standing there on the other side of me. Today has been a hard day, and yet neither one of us will talk to each other. We should set our differences aside and lets mourn the death of our loved one together today.