To the Future Man In My Life
There are a few things you should know about me.
Firstly you must work to earn my trust, I can no longer hand it out for free, I've done that before and each time it got the best of me.
I've seen, heard, and been threw a lot. I have no patience left for drama. I've had enough, I'm still recovering from the trauma.
You see, I once fell madly in love with a man who thought he was clever and that it was funny making an art of playing with and twisting up my heart.
I was mentally and physically abused, cheated on, lied to, and used.
I gave him every part of my soul with everything I had, all he gave me was heartache, and a reputation that was bad.
Life is a school and you are the lesson. I learned and I was taught. I do not need a repeat session. I'll never Again give my heart to a man who is a tool, who will underestimate my worth or treat me like a fool.
If you plan to be a man in my life, do not expect for me to accept anyone who carelessly leaps into my waters only to then fear my depth. I may appear calm, but I promise you that I am not shallow.
I will not settle for less than equality, I will not be mistaken for meek, I am independent women. I am not a sheep. I will not be a push over, I am not a doormat, I am not the women for you if you are into that.
You should also know, karma has got my back shall I ever again fall under attack. Everyone knows that she's the real , and you should take care if you do not wish to know the impact of the punch she can pack.
I will speak my truths and I will stand my ground. I will do this for my own piece of mind, and you better believe I will fight to the death to protect what is mine.
I will never again dim the shine of my light for a man who at first admires my sparkle, then later claims who I am is too much, I'm extra, I will not tone myself down because you feel I illuminate too bright. I've dumbed myself down pretending I didn't know what was going on out of my sight, I prayed to god and hoping it wasn't that bad. My intuition doesn't lie, of course I was right. I will not knowingly let history repeat, I know it does nothing but make me resentful and sad.
I went into solitude and did a whole reassessment, ventured out of my element to further my development. I'm starting a new chaper, I've laid the past to rest. I am now aware that I matter and I practice self-care. If you do not overstep these boundaries I've set, You've passed the test. You have the chance to prove you can love me the best.
Copyright © Ashley Gunter | Year Posted 2022
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