To My Own Self Say Sorry

Tears reunite with my cheeks once again Just as the dark clouds above start to rain It Felt as if God was their crying with me I felt he was close yet my eyes couldn’t see A man wearing red who looked my age but no older Comes over to me and puts his arm round my shoulder Before he could speak I just broke down and cried As if I had found out that morning a loved one just died He spoke not a word and just lent a kind ear Making me feel that thy father was near I suddenly realised, I was grieving you see The person who died was none other than me I was mourning the loss of a man in good health and took shelter in seeking a life of false wealth as gold turned to copper and patience to fear the mountain to climb for forgiveness was sheer ive never said sorry for letting you down for not sending a lifeboat when you started to drown I let your broad shoulders carry more than its fair load Stopped your lips from saying you’re about to explode Your children were left with a shell of a man A dad that just didn’t do all that he can I buried Your hurt and kept it deep down inside And I picked the wrong people for you to confide Why did I let weakness walk in through the door And then let you think you could deal with some more You broke so many walls down which I quickly rebuilt But each one I made higher adding anger and guilt Whilst death in mortality can’t be erased and undone I know you’ll come back once more from that place past the sun When we’re united there is no turning back I promise I’ll always help you loosen the slack Ill save you from drowning and be your strength when you’re weak I will unlock your lips forever letting you speak I’ll give your energy back and desires to care You’ll gain the trust of your kids to know you’ll always be there When weakness comes knocking I’ll never open the door Ill shut all the windows and the curtains will draw The walls will not be rebuilt to prevent your progression You’ll have a life full of laughter where there once was depression