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To My Family

I stay up all night thinking
About the entire day
How to make things different
To stop being afraid

I wish I could reach out and call
I know they really love me
They want to know about my life
But I don’t think they’ll see

My life is different from before 
This I do agree
But who I am and was before
I’m closer now to free

There are things that I must change
To have peace and to be
All I’ve ever dreamed of
Living and feeling free

I’ve found my mate, my lover
My family, my best friend
He’s older and he’s different
On him, I do depend

Our love is real and true and kind
He needs me, I need him
My family doesn’t accept me now
They’ve judged him on a wim

How do I live my life
Without my mom and dad
I know they want the best for me
But what they do is bad

They always expect the worst of me
And show me no trust too 
Despite the path I’ve laid till now
It doesn’t matter what I do

I’m proud of who I have become
A person honest and true
Why can’t they just be happy now
Sit back and watch how I grew

They created who I am in part
Their job is now to see
That I will choose my life and dreams
And who I want to be

I’m thankful and appreciate 
All that they have done
And want them to believe in me
And trust my life’s begun.

I’m estranged now from my brother
His wife and his family
My best friend Kim is worried
Of the life that I lead

They think that I have chosen bad
And not fulfilled my dreams
Assuming this about my life
Without consulting me

I wrote these words to express
How I feel to them
I hope that they will listen
And that acceptance will begin

I want them to stop assuming
Always the negative and the worst
And believe I can be happy
Help me lift my bad luck curse

I know it may be hard
To accept Charlie
But they will have to try this now
As he is part of me

If only they would give themselves
The chance to know him well
A person with a soul they’d love
If they could only tell

I hope my parents find a way
To understand my life
If they can’t accept me now
Stab me with a knife

This is how important you are
My beloved family
So can we please start over now, fresh and anew
This will make me happy
And Charlie wants this too

I need you with me by my side
In my life I do.
I love you and I miss you much
I hope you feel this too.

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