To Disappear Again

I wish I could just disappear, more often than you realize. Go back into the invisibility, that once shielded me from the world. Quiet spoken, downcast eyes, throw away my tattered pride. And become so small, that when I finally speak - you wont hear me. I'll live in shadows and dress in shades, and my universe can change back to black and gray. And I'll do it so slowly no one will realize the difference. And when I bloomed out of my Darkness, And people saw the light that danced in my eyes - they were surprised. But I think I'd like to take back that surprise, And make them forget they ever saw the cosmos at night. I don't want to be a color, nor even a shade, I don't want to be a song or a sound or a thought in your brain. I don't want you to see me like you have - I want to disappear again.