To Disappear Again

I wish I could just disappear, more often than you realize. 
Go back into the invisibility, that once shielded me from the world. 
Quiet spoken, downcast eyes, throw away my tattered pride. 
And become so small, that when I finally speak - you wont hear me. 
I'll live in shadows and dress in shades, 
and my universe can change back to black and gray. 
And I'll do it so slowly no one will realize the difference. 
And when I bloomed out of my Darkness,
And people saw the light that danced in my eyes - they were surprised. 
But I think I'd like to take back that surprise, 
And make them forget they ever saw the cosmos at night. 
I don't want to be a color, nor even a shade, 
I don't want to be a song or a sound or a thought in your brain. 
I don't want you to see me like you have - I want to disappear again.
Copyright © | Year Posted 2014

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Vaso Avatar
April 20, 2014 at 5:49 PM
Sad sad ending, but you have expressed this so well! Is it not ironic than in writing this, you have colored the world?
Bordner Avatar
April 18, 2014 at 11:13 PM
When beautiful things disappear a search ensues, the rights of an admirer. Be selfish again if you must, I wont ever forget or regret the Cosmos I saw. This what your emotions in words make me think. Great expression as always. J.A.B.
Torres Avatar
April 18, 2014 at 1:13 PM
Awesome!! .. this is very unique ,Jay.~~ to disappear again.. and be better once more! .. :O)) I'm awe w/ your style... great write!! ^__^
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