Time To Think

It hurts sitting here as I have things I want to tell you about but I know I messed up This all makes me questions myself Am I ready? How would I know? Will I ever be? It's hard to change who you are after being happy after where you've gotten I'm afraid of change at first but it doesn't mean I don't go there on my own I just think there's some rules you don't understand yet I can't look at time and worry about what I'll loose but that's what I'm doing I'm rushing through life to get away from insanity but I don't want to create a new one for myself and us