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Three Months Later

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"Suicide doesn't kill the pain-
it just passes it on to someone else"

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weeping from loss I emptied the ocean,
remembering each emotion
     abandoned by devotion-
sights unseen by nude eyes shine,
forgetting your dear heart is divine-
         please spread angel dust as a sign...
                                        that you will be fine   

ice falls down your cheek-
frozen like the air i breath
winter never knew her value,
for she is a season of loss

and o, those honey-hazel eyes
you wear-
once full of honeysuckle
        brilliance,
now enveloped by thoughts
of your willow weeping,
            your ebon pupils dilate-
           (forever blinded by my affliction)

i gently tucked your laugh away 
for safekeeping
lost in a landslide of non-forgotten
lachrymose moments

           “reveries of safety try to flow, 
            but they've been sandbagged by pain and woe”

youthful lesions crawl with ease-
one pin prick to the heart is 
enough to be lost inside what might 
have been
searching for touches needing
to be touched,
longing to kiss the unkissable
craving to voice what’s unspeakable
shielding your innocence to fear not
what lied ahead-
     (soul stolen by youthful demons)
the december rain is falling, and-
                                so are you

~three months later~

seems like a long time 
but it’s been no time-
feels like a lifetime…
               since you've gone

                                  for i cannot live
                        with your need to swallow death-
                                               sin of an angel

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Forms used:
Rhyme (AAABBBB), Verse, Couplet, Verse, Senryu

August 8, 2019

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Jan Allison

Date: 8/15/2019 7:54:00 AM

such an emotional piece LuLoo, so sorry to see sweet Ella is being affected by this at school such a tender age, it must be heartbreaking for you but hopefully you can help her cope by your experiences. Hugs to you both jan xx

Beautiful Scars
Date: 8/15/2019 1:47:00 PM

very true! I told Nick I want to make a shirt "I'm trying my best" funny but not really. Because I do try my best at everything I do, knowing that helps. Thanks lovely Jan, hugs back at you too :)-luloo

John Hamilton

Date: 8/14/2019 4:26:00 PM

Well done Laura, I am applauding...this is brilliant writing, you always draw out the emotion like few can do, that's why you are one of a few of my fave writers here!

Beautiful Scars
Date: 8/15/2019 1:46:00 PM

Thank you dear John, right back atcha :) -luloo

Tom Cunningham

Date: 8/13/2019 4:44:00 PM

A very emotional verse and have just read your comment to Sandra. I'm so sorry about your sister. Time passes but the pain never goes away. Congratulations on your win. Tom

Beautiful Scars
Date: 8/13/2019 8:15:00 PM

thank you so much Tom, appreciate it ;)-luloo

CayCay Jennings

Date: 8/12/2019 9:54:00 PM

How to call writing 'gorgeous' (for it splendidly stirred me) when it is heaped with raw heartbreak that spills over to run from each line? Oh. Oh. Listen, great writing and I know all things are in divine order. Also, your new pic is beyond cute! Poetry hugs ... CayCay

Beautiful Scars
Date: 8/12/2019 11:51:00 PM

thank you sweet CayCay, may your day be filled with laughter and love...:)-luloo

Sandra Adams

Date: 8/12/2019 8:29:00 PM

wow... this is powerful....being i work around kids i have seen this fate touch a few families in my years...i have to fave this....you have written a masterpiece here! i stand in awe...congrats on your very deserving win :) hugs

Beautiful Scars
Date: 8/12/2019 11:49:00 PM

thank you. My sister went missing New Year's Eve 2010. She had been very suicidal. We found her body St. Patrick's day 2011. (3 months later) She wrote a farewell letter and 8 years later I am still affected. (as you can see in some of my poems) She was my bestie, confidant and sister. I have been touched by suicide, and so have many others who suffer in silence. In fact, my 13 year old daughter is dealing with suicide with kids at school. 8th grade. I am so saddened by that... thank you so much sweet Sandra, be blessed :)-luloo

Mystic Rose Rose

Date: 8/12/2019 8:20:00 PM

Congratulations, I loved this poem from the very start, xo

Beautiful Scars
Date: 8/12/2019 11:45:00 PM

many thanks sweet Pixie, you are very sweet to me, thank you :)-luloo

Edward Ibeh

Date: 8/12/2019 8:17:00 PM

Love this poem, Lu:-) Congratulations on your win. Incidentally, you have a wondrous speaking and singing voice!

Beautiful Scars
Date: 8/12/2019 11:45:00 PM

oh boy, thank you...humbly embarrassed in Michigan... I have never done anything like that before. It's a fear I overcame I guess you could say. Thank you dear friend- blessings as always ;)-luloo

Constance La France

Date: 8/12/2019 7:26:00 PM

Lu congratulations on your win in my writing challenge with this emotional and excellent write and I love the effect of your reading and singing. This truly touched my heart

Beautiful Scars
Date: 8/12/2019 11:44:00 PM

thank you and I am honored you liked it. I wasn't too sure if it would turn out as well as I hoped, so I am glad you appreciated it. I have never done anything like that before with my voice. Especially singing, but I wanted to add a more dramatic effect. Plus I wanted to make sure all the different forms flowed good together. I was hoping me reading it would help. thank you so much sweet dear heart...:)-luloo