Thoughts

Just some thoughts
S**t on my mind

Early mornings I wake
Tire everyday
The shouts and screams
Can't fake that
I wanna leave
But I take it
I stay
I can't quit
I just pray
For better days
And better pays
Same songs on replay
It balances the moods
My changing attitudes
Now homework
No words
13 years +
Absurd
Family issues
The drama
The bickering
With my mama
I don't know 
My own home
Where I live
I don't go
Out on the road
Just traveling the streets
I Forrest Gump 
Same songs on repeat 
Phone rings 
And phone beeps
These girls that 
I meet
Wanna know me
And try to mold me
Try to get deeper
But the story's not unfolding
Best friend
Tries to understand
Give my brain 
A cat scan
But I hide the tears 
And pain
The only thing anyone knows 
Is my name
I have changed 
I'm not the same
I have gained 
So much fame
Still untamed
Yet I'm to blame
For all of this
Forsaken shame
Lungs collapse
Tears stream
Wishing this all
Is a bad dream
A nightmare
If you will
I can not take
The red pill
Sleep disorders
Insomnia
Dreams of little
Andrea
Money lost
Can't find a home
Don't wonder why
I walk alone 
So I blast my tunes
And rip the room
At night I converse
With the moon
But still I laugh 
And still I play
My life this stress
Won't take away
I can't lose
Can't give in
This evil world
We live in

Just some thoughts
Some s**t on my mind
Copyright © | Year Posted 2013

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September 13, 2018 at 8:05 PM
This is beautiful, Anna. I hope you are still writing. The world needs this. -Miranda
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